New poem: Emotions

This is my first I'm feeling like a blank slate, emotions fill my cup but i get sloppy and i loose the whole tray .

I feel the world projects words i never said, while form her still lips there were many words that i read.

I have a whole, this very big hole that no one can fill, that was how i felt till the moment with you made me understand what i feel .

Pure lust, infatuation, and pain re things of the mind, but you no i mean you its like you own my heart.

I can't eat until i know your alright, i can't sleep till i know your safe at night .

We are friends i know but I'm oliver in another body i want more. Thought of you all day till the headaches left my emotions tasting sour .

I feel , i don't know what i feel , but i know what i want . Understanding is the key, I'm not asking you to spend all your time with me .

I try to express the real me but I'm not sure they can meet your expectations, i don't want to be the MR right i want to make it feel right without questions .

I guess i try to hard that's the problem with me , all i ever wanted was to be happy .

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